February 14, 2018
I GOT IT right down pat: Happy Valentine’s Day to all! No holds barred — especially for the beloved Rudy, the hubby up there in the celestial world. It’s February — the iconic month for the heart throbbing with romance. Let’s be lovey-dovey, dear readers. Let sweet reminiscence set in.
Make an appointment with love — in thought, in word, and in deed — as the Scout’s motto would have it. Firstly, relish this story from the collection of Dr. Margie Holmes, the Philippines’ Sigmund Freud. Dr. Holmes says it is “a test you can take on love and the role it really plays in your life.” I had this in a column before which you might have read already. If you had, how did you end the story then? Read on and test yourself again. Enjoy:
Appointment with Love
by S.I. Kishor
Six minutes to six, said the clock over the information booth in New York’s Grand Central Station. The tall, young army lieutenant lifted his sunburned face and narrowed his eyes to note the exact time. His heart was pounding with a beat that shocked him. In six minutes he would see the woman he had never seen, yet whose written words had sustained him unfailingly.
Lieutenant Blandford remembered one day in particular, the worst of the fighting, when his plane had been caught in the midst of a pack of enemy planes. In one of his letters, he had confessed to her that he often felt fear, and only a few days before this battle, he had received her answer:
“Of course you fear…all brave men do. Next time you doubt yourself, I want you to hear my voice reciting to you: ‘Yea, though I walk among the shadow of the valley of death, I shall fear no evil, for Thou art with me.’”
He had remembered and it had renewed his strength.
Now he was going to hear her real voice. Four minutes to six. A girl passed close to him and Lieutenant Blandford started. She was wearing a flower, but it was not the little red rose they had agreed upon. Besides, this girl was only about 18, and Hollis Meynell had told him she was 30.
“What of it?” he had answered. “I’m 32!” He was 29.
His mind went back to the book he had read in the training camp. “Of Human Bondage,” it was, and throughout the book were notes in a woman’s writing. He had never believed that a woman could see into a man’s heart so tenderly, so understandingly. Her name was on the bookplate: Hollis Meynell. He had gotten hold of a New York City telephone book and found her address.
He had written; she had answered.
Next day he had been shipped out, but they had gone on writing. For 13 months she had faithfully replied. When his letters did not arrive, she wrote him anyway, and now he believed he loved her and she loved him.
But she had refused all his pleas to send him her photograph. She had explained: “If your feeling for me has any reality, what I look like won’t matter. Suppose I’m beautiful. I’d always be haunted that you had been taking a chance on just that, and that kind of love would disgust me. Suppose I’m plain (and you must admit that this is more likely), then I’d always fear that you were only going on writing because you were lonely and had no one else. No, don’t ask for my picture. When you come to New York, you shall see me and then you shall make your decision.”
One minute to six…he pulled hard on a cigarette. Then Lieutenant Blandford’s heart leaped. A young woman was coming toward him. Her figure was long and slim; her blond hair lay back in curls from her delicate ears. Her eyes were blue as flowers; her lips and chin had a gentle firmness. In her pale green suit, she was like springtime come alive. He started toward her, forgetting to notice that she was wearing no rose, and as he moved, a small provocative smile curved her lips.
“Going my way, soldier?” she murmured. He made one step closer to her. Then he saw Hollis Meynell. She was standing almost directly behind the girl, a woman well past 40, her graying hair tucked under a worn hat. She was more than plump; her feet were filled into low-heeled shoes. But she wore a red rose on her rumpled coat. The girl in the green suit was walking away.
Blandford felt as if he was being split in two, so keen was his desire to follow the girl, yet so deep his longing for the woman whose spirit had companioned and upheld his own; and there she stood. He could see that her pale, plump face was gentle and sensible; her gray eyes had a warm twinkle.
Before you read any farther, Margie Holmes wants you to make your own ending to the story, also to reason why you ended it that way. And now to continue:
Lieutenant Blandford did not hesitate. His fingers gripped the worn copy of “Of Human Bondage” which was to identify him to her. This would not be love, but it would be something precious, a friendship for which he had been and must ever be grateful. He squared his shoulders, saluted, and held the book out toward the woman, although while he spoke he felt the bitterness of his disappointment.
“I’m Lieutenant Blandford, and you – you are Ms. Meynell. I’m so glad you could meet me. May – may I take you out to dinner?”
The story is not over yet. Have you figured out Kishor’s ending to his story, and did it coincide with yours? Says Dr. Holmes: “This is not to say getting the Kishor’s ending was the most important thing…or even the point of the exercise. The point of the exercise is to help you discover what your view of love — particularly romantic love — is.” Here’s how the story ended:
The woman’s face broadened in a tolerant smile. “I don’t know what this is all about, son,” she answered. “That young lady in the green suit, she begged me to wear this rose on my coat. And she said that if you asked to go out with you, I should tell you she’s waiting for you in that restaurant across the street. She said it was some kind of a test.”
I sure hope you enjoyed the story. HAPPY VALENTINE’S DAY, everyone!
Julia Carreon-Lagoc was a columnist of PANAY NEWS for two decades. She pops up with Accents now and then. (email@example.com/PN)