IF I COULD program my dream, my perfect eight-hour dream for tonight would include a lot of sex.
I want sensual sex with my celebrity dream men/boys, where they all exist only to pleasure me.
Then, I want them to leave me to muscled, illiterate, big men who would ravage me orgiastically.
And then, just when I had enough rough sex, I would like to be rescued by some handsome eager twink, prince-like, who would also be romantic to slow sex me until the break of day.
It’s a dream, okay?
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I wasn’t afraid much of anything when I was a teenager.
I wasn’t afraid of drowning even if I didn’t know how to swim because, anyway, I didn’t go in the deep end of the water.
My fears are basic.
I don’t know if they count as irrational.
I’m afraid to be late in school, or any appointment for that matter.
To this day, I arrive at least 15 minutes ahead of all my appointments.
The most that I can think of as irrational, but this is only on hindsight, is my fear of earthworms.
I’m scared of snakes, period.
But that, I think, is a rational fear.
I’m afraid of earthworms, or any worm for that matter, because of their resemblance to snakes.
To this day, I’m still uneasy with earthworms, but it’s not like a fear factor challenge that I couldn’t survive.
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I’m not likely to get scammed.
I am very wary, and I don’t believe in get-rich-fast schemes.
The closest I’ve been to being scammed is having my friends, and family, borrow money from me.
Some end up not paying, and ruining the friendship.
Some end up not paying, and still keeping the friendship, but ignoring their loans.
Mostly, I’m only lending money for tuition fees (very select), and for medical expenses.
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Gone with the Wind, Singin’ in the Rain, Roman Holiday, My Fair Lady, Breakfast at Tiffany’s are the top five movies that I’ve watched more than ten times.
I’m an Audrey Hepburn fan so Roman Holiday, My Fair Lady, and Breakfast at Tiffany’s are no big surprises.
But I’ve been watching Gone with the Wind for many reasons.
One of biggest reasons is that the foster brother I had when I was sent to Japan in 1990 loved Vivien Leigh in that movie.
I love Singin’ in the Rain for the dancing and singing, and the moviemaking background.
I also watched it in Japan in 1990 with my Japanese foster brother Takashi.
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Dance marathons and running are probably the only things that my ten-year old self could beat me at today.
I am sharper than ever.
Smarter and funnier.
As far as emotional, social, psychological, and spiritual stuff are concerned, I’m in my best form ever.
Physically, I’m showing signs of slowing down.
I still think I can dance for hours, and run long distances, but my body doesn’t always support my imagination.
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I don’t have favorite shoes.
I wear all my shoes until they’re worn and torn.
I have a preference for ankle boots ever since I could afford them in my twenties.
In my teenage years, I liked the original black kung fu shoes with rubber soles.
I think we called them Chinese shoes.
They were cheap and comfortable.
But cheap was the deciding factor for me.
Unlike everybody else in my family, I always went for cheap shoes. (500tinaga@gmail.com/PN)
