No fear

I DON’T know how many times I’ve written about my simple joys.

But these days, it’s all about coffee, coffee talks, my iPhone camera, and young coconut juice.

Well, occasionally there’s longganisa and eggs.

Or a night of boundless sex.

***

There is an online smear campaign (and they got texting, too) to ruin my reputation.

They’re not explicitly saying I got HIV or AIDS.

But they’re implying with their question, “How true is it that #ThePSN got HIV?”

Well, idiots, IT IS NOT TRUE!

I post my HIV status on social media.

I get tested every so often; oftener than the suggested every six months.

And I’ve always tested negative, non-reactive.

***

The text has reached one of my friends.

The friend asked if I ruffled some political feathers.

To which I answered, Maybe.

My friend concluded that it’s a political move.

The price I have to pay for being so vocal about the mismanagement of my town.

***

I do not subscribe to victim mentality.

I will not be a victim.

They want to soil my reputation, go ahead.

But to be sure, after ten months in Dumangas, they cannot link me to any man, boy, boy toy, or prostitute.

They can try, but they will die trying.

Because I am beyond reproach.

I am as squeaky clean as can be.

***

Now, don’t get me started to questioning these people’s morals, sexuality, ethics, manipulation, and corruption.

Because I got their dirt.

And I can lay them down very well.

I can outline their political machinations.

***

If I am assassinated, you know who to blame.

And I curse their family name to be judged by history harshly.

May they never hold any public office ever again.

I do not have a death wish, but I swear I will only be greater.

My martyr’s blood will feed the meadows of Iloilo. 

No, I will not be a victim.

I will be a hero!

***

HIV! Hah!

I do not pray that I will get it.

But if I do, you, my readers, will be the first to know.

My social media followers will be the first to know.

For now, I will continue to post every and all of my HIV status online.

But as of my last test, I have tested negative.

NEGATIVE.

I have tested since 2005.

And I have been regularly testing since 2015, when I decided to be the poster boy of HIV screening on social media.

***

Now, do I wish on my detractors HIV and other diseases?

No. I only curse them ten times whatever evil thing they wish on me.

Because I do not curse lightly.

I give people blessings and healing, but I can also curse them and execrate them to perdition.

May the power of my words start to be born now, and grow in power everyday.

I have prayed, and I have spoken.

***

Over one recent birthday party dinner, I was asked by a friend, “Are you afraid for your life?”

No. I do not have a death wish, but I am okay with what I have achieved so far.

I know I am loved by my townspeople.

And if they are faking it, I am okay understanding that they have to fake things to survive.

But as for me, I have lived a truly magical life.

True, honest, simple, HIV-free.

***

There is nothing I have forgotten to do.

No food I missed eating.

No place I wanted that I have never visited.

No sex that I desired that I didn’t have.

Well, except for one or two maybe, but those boats have sailed.

Today, those objects of my sexual affection aren’t as desirable as they were 20 years ago. Haha.

Today, if they offered themselves to me, I’d probably say no. Haha./PN

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